On Tranquility
of Mind
Seneca
SERENUS: When I made examination of myself, it became
evident, Seneca, that some of my vices are uncovered and displayed so
openly that I can put my hand upon them, some are more hidden and lurk
in a corner, some are not always present but recur at intervals; and I
should say that the last are by far the most troublesome, being like
roving enemies that spring upon one when the opportunity offers, and
allow one neither to be ready as in war, nor to be off guard as in
peace.
Nevertheless the state in which I find myself most of all — for why
should I not admit the truth to you as to a physician? — is that I have
neither been honestly set free from the things that I hated and feared,
nor, on the other hand, am I in bondage to them; while the condition in
which I am placed is not the worst, yet I am complaining and fretful —
I am neither sick nor well. There is no need for you to say that all the
virtues are weakly at the beginning, that firmness and strength are
added by time. I am well aware also that the virtues that struggle for outward show, I mean for
position and the fame of eloquence and all that comes under the verdict
of others, do grow stronger as time passes — both those that provide
real strength and those that trick us out with a sort of dye with a view
to pleasing, must wait long years until gradually length of time
develops color — but I greatly fear that habit, which brings stability
to most things, may cause this fault of mine to become more deeply
implanted. Of things evil as well as good long intercourse induces love.
The nature of this weakness of mind that halts between two things and
inclines strongly neither to the right nor to the wrong, I cannot show
you so well all at once as a part at a time; I shall tell you what
befalls me — you will find a name for my malady. I am possessed by the
very greatest love of frugality, I must confess; I do not like a couch
made up for display, nor clothing brought forth from a chest or pressed
by weights and a thousand mangles to make it glossy, but homely and
cheap, that is neither preserved nor to be put on with anxious care; the
food that I like is neither prepared nor watched by a household of
slaves, it does not need to be ordered many days before nor to be served
by many hands, but is easy to get and abundant; there is nothing
far-fetched or costly about it, nowhere will there be any lack of it, it
is burdensome neither to the purse nor to the body, nor will it return
by the way it entered; the servant that I like is a young home-born
slave without training or skill; the silver is my country-bred father's
heavy plate bearing no stamp of the maker's name, and the table is not
notable for the variety of its markings or known to the town from the many
fashionable owners through whose hands it
has passed, but one that stands for use, and will neither cause the eyes
of any guest to linger upon it with pleasure nor fire them with envy.
Then, after all these things have had my full approval, my mind is
dazzled by the magnificence of some training-school for pages, by the
sight of slaves bedecked with gold and more carefully arrayed than the
leaders of a public procession, and a whole regiment of glittering
attendants; by the sight of a house where one even treads on precious
stones and riches are scattered about in every corner, where the very
roofs glitter, and the whole town pays court and escorts an inheritance
on the road to ruin. And what shall I say of the waters, transparent to
the bottom, that flow around the guests even as they banquet, what of
the feasts that are worthy of their setting? Coming from a long
abandonment to thrift, luxury has poured around me the wealth of its splendor,
and echoed around me, on every side. My sight falters a little, for I
can lift up my heart towards it more easily than my eyes. And so I come
back, not worse, but sadder, and I do not walk among my paltry
possessions with head erect as before, and there enters a secret sting
and the doubt whether the other life is not better. None of these things
changes me, yet none of them fails to disturb me.
I resolve to obey the commands of my teachers and plunge into the midst
of public life; I resolve to try to gain office and the consulship,
attracted of course, not by the purple or by the lictor's rods, but by
the desire to be more serviceable and useful to my friends and relatives
and all my countrymen and then to all mankind. Ready
and determined, I follow Zeno, Cleanthes, and Chrysippus, of whom none the less not one
entered upon public life, and not one failed to urge others to do so.
And then, whenever something upsets my mind, which is unused to meeting
shocks, whenever something happens that is either unworthy of me, and
many such occur in the lives of all human beings, or that does not
proceed very easily, or when things that are not to be accounted of
great value demand much of my time, I turn back to my leisure, and just
as wearied flocks too do, I quicken my pace towards home.
I resolve to confine my life within its own walls: "Let no one," I say, "who will
make me no worthy return for such a loss rob me of a single day; let my
mind be fixed upon itself, let it cultivate itself, let it busy itself
with nothing outside, nothing that looks towards an umpire; let it
love the tranquillity that is remote from public and private concern." But when my mind has been aroused by reading of great bravery, and noble
examples have applied the spur, I want to rush into the forum, to lend
my voice to one man; to offer such assistance to another as, even if it
will not help, will be an effort to help; or to check the pride of
someone in the forum who has been unfortunately puffed up by his
successes.
And in my literary studies I think that it is surely better to fix my
eye on the theme itself, and, keeping this uppermost when I speak, to
trust meanwhile to the theme to supply the words so that unstudied
language may follow it wherever it leads. I say: "What
need is there to compose something that will last for centuries? Will
you not give up striving to keep posterity from being silent about you?
You were born for death; a silent funeral is less troublesome!
"And so to pass the time, write something in simple style, for your
own use, not for publication; they that study for the day have less need
to labor." Then again, when my mind has been uplifted by the greatness
of its thoughts, it becomes ambitious of words, and with higher
aspirations it desires higher expression, and language issues forth to
match the dignity of the theme: forgetful then of my rule and of my more
restrained judgment, I am swept to loftier heights by an utterance that
is no longer my own.
Not to indulge longer in details, I am in all things attended by this
weakness of good intention. In fact I fear that I am gradually losing
ground, or, what causes me even more worry, that I am hanging like one
who is always on the verge of falling, and that perhaps I am in a more
serious condition than I myself perceive; for we take a favorable view
of our private matters, and partiality always hampers our judgment.
I fancy that many men would have arrived at wisdom if they had not fancied
that they had already arrived, if they had not dissembled about certain
traits in their character and passed by others with their eyes shut. For
there is no reason for you to suppose that the adulation of other people
is more ruinous to us than our own. Who dares to tell himself the truth?
Who, though he is surrounded by a horde of applauding sycophants, is not
for all that his own greatest flatterer? I beg you,
therefore, if you have any remedy by which you could stop this
fluctuation of mine, to deem me worthy of being indebted to you for tranquillity.
I know that these mental disturbances of mine are not
dangerous and give no promise of a storm; to express what I complain of
in apt metaphor, I am distressed, not by a tempest, but by sea-sickness.
Do you, then, take from me this trouble, whatever it be, and rush to the
rescue of one who is struggling in full sight of land.
SENECA: In truth, Serenus, I have for a long time been silently asking
myself to what I should liken such a condition of mind, and I can find
nothing that so closely approaches it as the state of those who, after
being released from a long and serious illness, are sometimes touched
with fits of fever and slight disorders, and, freed from the last traces
of them, are nevertheless disquieted with mistrust, and, though now
quite well, stretch out their wrist to a physician and complain unjustly
of any trace of heat in their body. It is not, Serenus, that these are
not quite well in body, but that they are not quite used to being well;
just as even a tranquil sea will show some ripple, particularly when it
has just subsided after a storm. What you need, therefore, is not any of
those harsher measures which we have already left behind, the necessity
of opposing yourself at this point, of being angry with yourself at
that, of sternly urging yourself on at another, but that which comes
last — confidence in yourself and the belief that you are on the right
path, and have not been led astray by the many cross-tracks of those
who are roaming in every direction, some of whom are wandering very near
the path itself. But what you desire is something great and supreme and
very near to being a god — to be unshaken.
This abiding stability of mind the Greeks call euthyimia, "well-being of
the soul," on which there is an excellent treatise by Democritus; I call
it tranquillity. For there is no need to imitate and reproduce words in their
Greek shape; the thing itself, which is under
discussion, must be designated by some name which ought to have, not the
form, but the force, of the Greek term. What we are seeking, therefore,
is how the mind may always pursue a steady and favorable course, may be
well-disposed towards itself, and may view its condition with joy, and
suffer no interruption of this joy, but may abide in a peaceful state,
being never uplifted nor ever cast down. This will be "tranquillity."
Let us seek in a general way how it may be obtained; then from the
universal remedy you will appropriate as much as you like. Meanwhile we
must drag forth into the light the whole of the infirmity, and each one
will then recognize his own share of it; at the same time you will
understand how much less trouble you have with your self-depreciation
than those who, fettered to some showy declaration and struggling
beneath the burden of some grand title, are held more by shame than by
desire to the pretence they are making.
All are in the same case, both those, on the one hand, who are plagued
with fickleness and boredom and a continual shifting of purpose, and
those, on the other other, who loll and yawn. Add also those who, just
like the wretches who find it hard to sleep, change their position and
settle first in one way and then in another, until finally they find
rest through weariness. By repeatedly altering the condition of their
life they are at last left in that in which, not the dislike of making a
change, but old age, that shrinks from novelty, has caught them. And add
also those who by fault, not of firmness of character, but of inertia,
are not fickle enough, and live, not as they wish, but as they have
begun. The characteristics of the malady are countless in number, but it has only one effect
— to be dissatisfied with oneself. This springs from a lack of mental poise and
from timid or unfulfilled desires, when men either do not dare, or do
not attain, as much as they desire, and become entirely dependent upon
hope; such men are always unstable and changeable, as must necessarily
be the fate of those who live in suspense.
They strive to attain their
prayers by every means, they teach and force themselves to do
dishonorable and difficult things, and, when their effort is without
reward, they are tortured by the fruitless disgrace and grieve, not
because they wished for what was wrong, but because they wished in vain.
Then regret for what they have begun lays hold upon them, and the fear
of beginning again, and then creeps in the agitation of a mind which can
find no issue, because they can neither rule nor obey their desires, and
the hesitancy of a life which fails to find its way clear, and then the
dullness of a soul that lies torpid amid abandoned hopes. And all these
tendencies are aggravated when from hatred of their laborious
ill-success men have taken refuge in leisure and in solitary studies,
which are unendurable to a mind that is intent upon public affairs,
desirous of action, and naturally restless, because assuredly it has too
few resources within itself; when, therefore, the pleasures have been
withdrawn which business itself affords to those who are busily engaged,
the mind cannot endure home, solitude, and the walls of a room, and sees
with dislike that it has been left to itself.
From this comes that boredom and dissatisfaction and the vacillation
of a mind that nowhere finds rest, and the sad and languid endurance of
one's leisure; especially when one is ashamed to confess the real causes of this
condition and bashfullness drives its tortures inward; the desires pent
up within narrow bounds, from which there is no escape, strangle one
another. Thence comes mourning and melancholy and the thousand waverings
of an unsettled mind, which its aspirations hold in suspense and then
disappointment renders melancholy. Thence comes that feeling which makes
men loathe their own leisure and complain that they themselves have
nothing to be busy with; thence too the bitterest jealousy of the
advancements of others. For their unhappy sloth fosters envy, and,
because they could not succeed themselves, they wish every one else to
be ruined; then from this aversion to the progress of others and despair
of their own their mind becomes incensed against Fortune, and complains
of the times, and retreats into corners and broods over its trouble
until it becomes weary and sick of itself.
For it is the nature of the
human mind to be active and prone to movement. Welcome to it is every
opportunity for excitement and distraction, and still more welcome to
all those worst natures which willingly wear themselves out in being
employed. Just as there are some sores which crave the hands that will
hurt them and rejoice to be touched, and as a foul itch of the body
delights in whatever scratches, exactly so, I would say, do these minds
upon which, so to speak, desires have broken out like wicked sores find
pleasure in toil and vexation. For there are certain things that delight
our body also while causing it a sort of pain, as turning over and
changing a side that is not yet tired and taking one position after
another to get cool. Homer's hero Achilles is like that — lying now on
his face, now on his back, placing himself in various attitudes, and, just as
sick men do, enduring nothing very long and using changes as remedies.
Hence men undertake wide-ranging travel, and wander over remote shores,
and their fickleness, always discontented with the present, gives proof
of itself now on land and now on sea. "Now let us head for Campania,"
they say. And now when soft living palls, "Let us see the wild parts,"
they say, "let us hunt out the passes of Bruttium and Lucania." And yet
amid that wilderness something is missing — something pleasant wherein
their pampered eyes may find relief from the lasting squalor of those
rugged regions: "Let us head for Tarentum with its famous harbor and
its mild winter climate, and a territory rich enough to have a horde of
people even in antiquity." Too long have their ears missed the shouts
and the din; it delights them by now even to enjoy human blood: "Let us
now turn our course toward the city." They undertake one journey after
another and change spectacle for spectacle. As Lucretius says:
Thus ever from himself doth each man flee.
But what does he gain if he does not escape from himself?
He ever follows himself and weighs upon himself as his own
most burdensome companion. And so we ought to understand that what we
struggle with is the fault, not of the places, but of ourselves; when
there is need of endurance, we are weak, and we cannot bear toil or
pleasure or ourselves or anything very long. It is this that has driven
some men to death, because by often altering their purpose they were
always brought back to the same things and had left themselves no room tor anything new. They began to be
sick of life and the world itself, and from the self-indulgences that
wasted them was born the thought: "How long shall I endure the same
things?"
You ask what help, in my opinion, should be employed to overcome this
tedium. The best course would be, as Athenodorus says, to occupy
oneself with practical matters, the management of public affairs, and
the duties of a citizen. For as some men pass the day in seeking the sun
and in exercise and care of the body, and as athletes find it is most
profitable by far to devote the greater part of the day to the
development of their muscles and the strength to which alone they have
dedicated themselves; so for you, who are training your mind for the
struggle of political life, by far the most desirable thing is to be
busy at one task. For, whenever a man has the set purpose to make
himself useful to his countrymen and all mortals, he both gets practice
and does service at the same time when he has placed himself in the very
midst of active duties, serving to the best of his ability the interests
both of the public and of the individual.
"But because," he continues, "in this mad world of ambition where
chicanery so frequently twists right into wrong, simplicity is hardly safe,
and is always sure to meet with more that hinders than helps it, we
ought indeed to withdraw from the forum and public life, but a great
mind has an opportunity to display itself freely even in private life;
nor, just as the activity of lions and animals is restrained by their
dens, is it so of man's, whose greatest achievements are wrought in
retirement. Let a man, however, hide himself away bearing in mind that,
wherever be secretes his leisure, he should be willing to benefit
the individual man and mankind by his intellect, his voice, and his
counsel. For the man that does good service to the state is not merely
he who brings forward candidates and defends the accused and votes for
peace and war, but he also who admonishes young men, who instills virtue
into their minds, supplying the great lack of good teachers, who lays
hold upon those that are rushing wildly in pursuit of money and luxury,
and draws them back, and, if he accomplishes nothing else, at least
retards them — such a man performs a public service even in private
life.
"Or does he accomplish more who in the office of praetor, whether
in cases between citizens and foreigners or in cases between citizens,
delivers to suitors the verdict his assistant has formulated, than he
who teaches the meaning of justice, of piety, of endurance, of bravery,
of contempt of death, of knowledge of the gods, and how secure and free
is the blessing of a good conscience? If, then, the time that you have
stolen from public duties is bestowed upon studies, you will neither
have deserted, nor refused, your office. For a soldier is not merely one
who stands in line and defends the right or the left wing, but he also
who guards the gates and fills, not an idle, but a less dangerous, post,
who keeps watch at night and has charge of the armory; these offices,
though they are bloodless, yet count as military service. If you devote
yourself to studies, you will have escaped all your disgust at life, you
will not long for night to come because you are weary of the light, nor
will you be either burdensome to yourself or useless to others; you will
attract many to friendship and those that gather about you will be the most excellent.
"For virtue, though obscured, is never
concealed, but always gives signs of its presence; whoever is worthy
will trace her out by her footsteps. But if we give up society
altogether and, turning our back upon the human race, live with our
thoughts fixed only upon ourselves, this solitude deprived of every
interest will be followed by a want of something to be accomplished. We
shall begin to put up some buildings, to pull down others, to thrust
back the sea, to cause waters to flow despite the obstacles of nature,
and shall make ill disposition of the time which Nature has given us to
be used.
"Some use it sparingly, others wastefully; some of us spend it in such a
way that we are able to give an account of it, others in such a way —
and nothing can be more shameful — that we have no balance left. Often a
man who is very old in years has no evidence to prove that he has lived
a long time other than his age."
To me, my dearest Serenus, Athenodorus seems to have surrendered too
quickly to the times, to have retreated too quickly. I myself would not
deny that sometimes one must retire, but it should be a gradual retreat
without surrendering the standards, without surrendering the honor of
a soldier; those are more respected by their enemies and safer who come
to terms with their arms in their hands. This is what I think Virtue and
Virtue's devotee should do. If Fortune shall get the upper hand and
shall cut off the opportunity for action, let a man not straightway turn
his back and flee, throwing away his arms and seeking some hiding-place,
as if there were anywhere a place where Fortune could not reach him, but
let him devote himself to his duties more sparingly, and, after making
choice, let him find something in which he may be useful to
the state.
Is he not permitted to be a soldier? Let him seek
public office. Must he live in a private station? Let him be a pleader.
Is he condemned to silence? Let him help his countrymen by his silent
support. Is it dangerous even to enter the forum? In private houses, at
the public spectacles, at feasts let him show himself a good comrade, a
faithful friend, a temperate feaster. Has he lost the duties of a
citizen? Let him exercise those of a man. The very reason for our
magnanimity in not shutting ourselves up within the walls of one city,
in going forth into intercourse with the whole earth, and in claiming
the world as our country, was that we might have a wider field for our
virtue. Is the tribunal closed to you, and are you barred from the
rostrum and the hustings? Look how many broad stretching countries lie
open behind you, how many peoples; never can you be blocked from any
part so large that a still larger will not be left to you.
But take care
that this is not wholly your own fault; you are not willing to serve the
state except as a consul or prytanis or herald or sufete. What if
you should be unwilling to serve in the army except as a general or a
tribune? Even if others shall hold the front line and your lot has
placed you among those of the third line, from there where you are do
service with your voice, encouragement, example, and spirit; even though
a man's hands are cut off, he finds that he can do something for his
side in battle if he stands his ground and helps with the shouting. Some
such thing is what you should do. If Fortune has removed you from the
foremost position in the state, you should, nevertheless, stand your
ground and help with the shouting, and if someone stops your throat, you
should, nevertheless, stand your ground and help in silence.
The service
of a good citizen is never useless; by being heard and seen, by his
expression, by his gesture, by his silent stubbornness, and by his very
walk he helps. As there are certain salutary things that without our
tasting and touching them benefit us by their mere odor, so virtue
sheds her advantage even from a distance, and in hiding. Whether she
walks abroad and of her own right makes herself active, or has her
appearances on sufferance and is forced to draw in her sails, or is
inactive and mute and pent within narrow bounds, or is openly displayed,
no matter what her condition is, she always does good.
Why, then, do you think that the example of one who lives in honorable
retirement is of little value? Accordingly, the best course by far is to
combine leisure with business, whenever chance obstacles or the
condition of the state shall prevent one's living a really active life;
for a man is never so completely shut off from all pursuits that no
opportunity is left for any honorable activity. Can you find any city
more wretched than was that of the Athenians when it was being torn to
pieces by the Thirty Tyrants? They had slain thirteen hundred citizens,
all the best men, and were not for that reason ready to stop, but their
very cruelty fed its own flame. In the city in which there was the
Areopagus, a most god-fearing court, in which there was a senate and a
popular assembly that was like a senate, there gathered together every
day a sorry college of hangmen, and the unhappy senate-house was made
too narrow by tyrants! Could that city ever find peace in which there
were as many tyrants as there might be satellites? No hope even of recovering liberty
could offer itself, nor did there seem to be room for any sort of help
against such mighty strength of wicked men. For where could the wretched
state find enough Harmodiuses?
Yet Socrates was in their midst and
comforted the mourning city fathers, he encouraged those that were
despairing of the state, reproached the rich men that were now dreading
their wealth with a too late repentance of their perilous greed, while
to those willing to imitate him he carried round with him a great
example, as he moved a free man amid thirty masters. Yet this was the
man that Athens herself murdered in prison, and Freedom herself could
not endure the freedom of one who had mocked in security at a whole band
of tyrants. And so you may learn both that the wise man has opportunity
to display his power when the state is torn by trouble, and that
effrontery, envy, and a thousand other cowardly vices hold sway when it
is prosperous and happy. Therefore we shall either expand or contract
our effort according as the state shall lend herself to us, according as
Fortune shall permit us, but in any case we shall keep moving, and shall
not be tied down and numbed by fear. Nay, he will be truly a man who,
when perils are threatening from every side, when arms and chains are
rattling around him, will neither endanger, nor conceal, his virtue; for
saving oneself does not mean burying oneself.
Curius Dentatus said,
truly as I think, that he would rather be a dead man than a live one
dead; for the worst of ills is to leave the number of the living
before you die. But if you should happen upon a time when it is not at
all easy to serve the state, your necessary course will be to claim more time for leisure and
for letters, and, just as if you were making a perilous voyage, to put
into harbor from time to time, and, without waiting for public affairs
to release you, to separate yourself from them of your own accord.
Our duty, however, will be, first, to examine our own selves, then, the
matters that we shall undertake, and lastly, those for whose sake or in
whose company we are undertaking them. Above all it is necessary for a
man to estimate himself truly, because we commonly think that we can do
more than we are able.
One man blunders by relying upon his eloquence,
another makes more demand upon his fortune than it can stand, another
burdens a weakly body with laborious tasks. Some men by reason of their
modesty are quite unsuited to civil affairs, which need a strong front;
some by reason of their stubborn pride are not fitted for court; some do
not have their anger under control, and any sort of provocation hurries
them to rash words; some do not know how to restrain their pleasantry
and cannot abstain from dangerous wit. For all these retirement is more
serviceable than employment; a headstrong and impatient nature should
avoid all incitements to a freedom of speech that will prove harmful.
Next, we must estimate the matters themselves that we are
undertaking, and must compare our strength with the things that we are
about to attempt; for the doer must always be stronger than his task;
burdens that are too heavy for their bearer must necessarily crush him.
There are certain undertakings, moreover, that are not so much great as
they are prolific, and thus lead to many fresh undertakings. Not only ought you to avoid those that give birth to new
and multifarious employment, but you ought not to approach a task from
which you are not free to retreat; you must put your hand to those that
you can either finish, or at least hope to finish, leaving those
untouched that grow bigger as you progress and do not cease at the point
you intended.
And we must be particularly careful in our choice of men, and consider
whether they are worthy of having us devote some part of our life to
them, or whether the sacrifice of our time extends to theirs also; for
certain people actually charge against us the services we do them.
Athenodorus says that he would not go to dine with a man who would not
feel indebted to him for doing so. You understand, I suppose, that much
less would he go to dinner with those who recompense the services of
friends by their table, who get down the courses of a meal as largesses,
as if they were being intemperate to do honor to others. Take away the
spectators and witnesses, and solitary gluttony will give them no
pleasure.
But consider whether your nature is better adapted to active
affairs or to leisurely study and contemplation, and you must turn
towards that course to which the bent of your genius shall direct you.
Isocrates laid hands upon Ephorus and led him away from the forum,
thinking that he would be more useful in compiling the records of
history; for inborn tendencies answer ill to compulsion, and where
Nature opposes labor is in vain.
Nothing, however, gives the mind so much pleasure as fond and faithful
friendship. What a blessing it is to have those to whose waiting hearts
every secret may be committed with safety, whose knowledge of you
you fear less than your knowledge of yourself, whose conversation
soothes your anxiety, whose opinion assists your decision, whose
cheerfulness scatters your sorrow, the very sight of whom gives you joy!
We shall of course choose those who are free, as far as may be, from
selfish desires; for vices spread unnoticed, and quickly pass to those
nearest and do harm by their contact.
And so, just as in times of
pestilence we must take care not to sit near those whose bodies are
already infected and inflamed with disease, because we shall incur risks
and be in danger from their very breath, so, in choosing our friends, we
shall have regard for their character, so that we may appropriate those
who are marked with fewest stains; to combine the sick with the sound is
to spread disease. Yet I would not lay down the rule that you are to
follow, or attach to yourself, none but a wise man. For where will you
find him whom we have been seeking for so many centuries? In place of
the best man take the one least bad! Opportunity for a happier choice
scarcely could you have, were you searching for a good man among the Platos and the Xenophons and the rest of that glorious company of the
Socratic breed, or, too, if you had at your command the age of Cato,
which bore many men who were worthy to be born in Cato's time, just as
it also bore many that were worse than had ever been known, and
contrivers of the most monstrous crimes; for both classes were necessary
in order that Cato might be understood — he needed to have good men that
he might win their approval, and bad men that be might prove his
strength.
But now, when there is such a great dearth of good men, you
must be less squeamish in making your choice. Yet those are especially
to be avoided who are melancholy and bewail everything,
who find pleasure in every opportunity for complaint.
Though a man's loyalty and friendliness be assured, yet the companion
who is always upset and bemoans everything is a foe to tranquillity.
Let us pass now to the matter of fortunes, which are the greatest source
of human sorrow; for if you compare all the other ills from which we
suffer: deaths, sicknesses, fears, longings, the endurance of pains and labors
— with the evils which our money brings, this portion will far
outweigh the other. And so we must reflect how much lighter is the
sorrow of not having money than of losing it; and we shall understand
that, the less poverty has to lose, the less chance it has to torment
us. For you are wrong if you think that the rich suffer losses more
cheerfully; the pain of a wound is the same in the largest and smallest
bodies.
Bion says neatly that it hurts, the bald-head just as much as
the thatched-head to have his hairs plucked. You may be sure that the
same thing holds for the poor and the rich, that their suffering is just
the same; for their money has a fast grip on both, and cannot be torn
away without their feeling it. But, as I have said, it is more endurable
and easier not to acquire it than to lose it, and therefore you will see
that those whom Fortune has never regarded are more cheerful than those
whom she has forsaken.
Diogenes, that high-souled man, saw this, and
made it impossible for anything to be snatched from him. Do you call
such a state poverty, want, need, give this security any disgraceful
name you please. I shall not count the man happy, if you can find anyone
else who has nothing to lose! Either I am deceived, or it is a regal thing to be the only one amid all the
misers, the sharpers, the robbers, and plunderers who cannot be harmed.
If anyone has any doubt about the happiness of Diogenes, he may likewise
have doubt about the condition of the immortal gods as well — whether
they are living quite unhappily because they have neither manors nor
gardens nor costly estates farmed by a foreign tenant, nor a huge
yield of interest in the forum.
All ye who bow down to riches, where is
your shame? Come, turn your eyes upon heaven; you will see the gods
quite needy, giving all and having nothing. Do you think that he who
stripped himself of all the gilds of Fortune is a poor man or simply
like the immortal gods? Would you say that Demetrius, the freedman of
Pompey who was not ashamed to be richer than Pompey, was a happier man?
He, to whom two underlings and a roomier cell would once have been
wealth, used to have the number of his slaves reported to him every day
as if he were the general of an army! But the only slave Diogenes had
ran away from him once, and, when he was pointed out to him, he did not
think it worth while to fetch him back. "It would be a shame," he said,
"if Diogenes is not able to live without Manes, when Manes is able to
live without Diogenes." But he seems to me to have cried: "Fortune, mind
your own business; Diogenes has now nothing of yours. My slave has run
away — nay, it is I that have got away free!"
A household of slaves
requires clothes and food; so many bellies of creatures that are always
hungry have to be filled, we have to buy clothing for them, and watch
their most thievish hands, and use the services of people weeping and
cursing. How much happier is he whose only obligation is to one whom he can most
easily refuse himself! Since, however, we do not have such strength of
character, we ought at least to reduce our possessions, so as to be less
exposed to the injuries of Fortune.
In war those men are better fitted for service whose bodies can be
squeezed into their armor than those whose bodies spill over, and whose
very bulk everywhere exposes them to wounds. In the case of money, an
amount that does not descend to poverty, and yet is not for removed from
poverty, is the most desirable.
Moreover, we shall be content with this measure if we were previously
content with thrift, without which no amount of wealth is sufficient,
and no amount is not sufficiently ample, especially since the remedy is
always near at hand, and poverty of itself is able to turn itself into
riches by summoning economy. Let us form the habit of putting away from
us mere pomp and of measuring the uses of things, not their decorative
qualities. Let food subdue hunger, drink quench thirst; let lust follow
the course of nature; let us learn to rely upon our limbs and to conform
our dress and mode of life, not to the new fashions, but to the customs
our ancestors approved; let us learn to increase our self-control, to
restrain luxury, to moderate ambition, to soften anger, to view poverty
with unprejudiced eyes, to cultivate frugality, even if many shall be
ashamed, all the more to apply to the wants of nature the remedies that
cost little, to keep unruly hopes and a mind that is intent upon the
future, as it were, in chains, and to determine to seek our riches from
ourselves rather than from Fortune.
It is never possible that all the
diversity and injustice of mischance can be so repulsed, that many
storms will not sweep down upon those who are spreading great sail. We
must draw in our activities to a narrow compass in order that the darts
of Fortune may fall into nothingness, and for this reason exiles and
disasters have turned out to be benefits, and more serious ills have
been healed by those that are lighter. When the mind is disobedient to
precepts and cannot be restored by gentler means, why should it not be
for its own good to have poverty, disgrace, and a violent overthrow of
fortune applied to it — to match evil with evil? Let us then get
accustomed to being able to dine without the multitude, to being the
slave of fewer slaves, to getting clothes for the purpose for which they
were devised, and to living in narrower quarters. Not only in the race
and the contests of the Circus, but also in the arena of life we must
keep to the inner circle.
Even for studies, where expenditure is most honorable, it is
justifiable only so long as it is kept within bounds. What is the use of
having countless books and libraries, whose titles their owners can
scarcely read through in a whole lifetime? The learner is, not
instructed, but burdened by the mass of them, and it is much better to
surrender yourself to a few authors than to wander through many. Forty
thousand books were burned at Alexandria; let someone else praise this
library as the most noble monument to the wealth of kings, as did Titus
Livius, who says that it was the most distinguished achievement of the
good taste and solicitude of kings. There was no "good taste" or
"solicitude" about it, but only learned luxury — nay, not even
"learned," since they had collected the books, not for the sake of
learning, but to make a show, just as many who lack even a child's knowledge
of letters use books, not as the tools of learning, but as decorations
for the dining-room. Therefore, let just as many books be acquired as are
enough, but not for mere show.
"It is more respectable," you say, "to
squander money on these than on Corinthian bronzes and on pictures." But
excess in anything becomes a fault. What excuse have you to offer for a
man who seeks to have bookcases of citrus-wood and ivory, who collects
the works of unknown or discredited authors and sits yawning in the
midst of so many thousand books, who gets most of his pleasure from the
outsides of volumes and their titles? Consequently it is in the houses
of the laziest men that you will see a full collection of orations and
history with the boxes piled right up to the ceiling; for by now among
cold baths and hot baths a library also is equipped as a necessary
ornament of a great house. I would readily pardon these men if they were
led astray by their excessive zeal for learning. But as it is, these
collections of the works of sacred genius with all the portraits that
adorn them are bought for show and a decoration of their walls.
But it may be that you have fallen upon some phase of life which is
difficult, and that, before you are aware, your public or your private
fortune has you fastened in a noose which you can neither burst nor
untie. But reflect that it is only at first that prisoners are worried
by the burdens and shackles upon their legs; later, when they have
determined not to chafe against them, but to endure them, necessity
teaches them to bear them bravely, habit to bear them easily. In any
sort of life you will find that there are amusements and relaxations and
pleasures, if you are willing to consider your evils lightly rather than to make them
hateful. On no score has Nature more deserved our thanks, who, since she
knew to what sorrows we were born, invented habit as an alleviation for
disasters, and thus quickly accustoms us to the most serious ills. No
one could endure adversity if, while it continued, it kept the same
violence that its first blows had.
All of us are chained to Fortune.
Some are bound by a loose and golden chain, others by a tight chain of
baser metal; but what difference does it make? The same captivity holds
all men in its toils, those who have bound others have also been bound —
unless perhaps you think that a chain on the left hand is a lighter
one. Some are chained by public office, others by wealth; some carry the
burden of high birth, some of low birth; some bow beneath another's
empire, some beneath their own; some are kept in one place by exile,
others by priesthoods. All life is a servitude. And so a man must
become reconciled to his lot, must complain of it as little as possible,
and must lay hold of whatever good it may have; no state is so bitter
that a calm mind cannot find in it some consolation. Even small spaces
by skillful planning often reveal many uses; and arrangement will make
habitable a place of ever so small dimensions. Apply reason to
difficulties; it is possible to soften what is hard, to widen what is
narrow, and burdens will press less heavily upon those who bear them skillfully.
Moreover, we must not send our desires upon a distant quest, but we
should permit them to have access to what is near, since they do not
endure to be shut up altogether. Leaving those things that either cannot be
done, or can be done only with difficulty, let us pursue what lies near
at hand and allures our hope, but let us be aware that they all are
equally trivial, diverse outwardly in appearance, within alike vain. And
let us not envy those who stand in higher places; where there appeared
heights, there are precipices. Those, on the other hand, whom an unkind
lot has placed in a critical position, will be safer by reducing their
pride in the things that are in themselves proud and lowering their
fortune, so far as they shall be able, to the common level. While there
are many who must necessarily cling to their pinnacle, from which they
cannot descend without falling, yet they may bear witness that their
greatest burden is the very fact that they are forced to be burdensome
to others, being not lifted, but nailed on high.
By justice, by kindness, by courtesy, and by lavish and kindly giving
let them prepare many safeguards against later mishaps, in hope whereof
they may be more easy in their suspense. Yet nothing can free us from
these mental waverings so effectively as always to establish some limit
to advancement and not leave to Fortune the decision of when it shall
end, but halt of our own accord far short of the limit that the examples
of others urge. In this way there will be some desires to prick on the
mind, and yet, because bounds have been set to them, they will not lead
it to that which is unlimited and uncertain.
These remarks of mine apply, not to the wise man, but to those who are
not yet perfect, to the mediocre, and to the unsound.
The wise man does
not need to walk timidly and cautiously; for so great is his confidence
in himself that he does not hesitate to go against Fortune, and will
never retreat before her. Nor has he any reason to fear her, for he
counts not merely his chattels and his possessions and his position, but
even his body and his eyes and his hand and all else that makes life
very dear to a man, nay, even himself, among the things that are given
on sufferance, and he lives as one who has been lent to himself and will
return everything without sorrow when it is reclaimed. Nor is he therefore cheap in his own
eyes, because be knows that he does not belong to himself, but he will
perform all his duties as diligently and as circumspectly as a devout
and holy man is wont to guard the property entrusted to his protection.
When, however, he is bidden to give them up, he will not quarrel with
Fortune, but will say: "I give thanks for what I have possessed and
held. I have managed your property to great advantage, but, since you
order me, I give it up, I surrender it gratefully and gladly. If you
still wish me to have anything of yours, I shall guard it; if your
pleasure is otherwise, I give back and restore to you my silver both
wrought and coined, my house, and my household." Should Nature recall
what she previously entrusted us with, we shall say to her also: "Take
back the spirit that is better than when you gave it. I do not quibble
or hang back; of my own free will I am ready for you to take what you
gave me before I was conscious — away with it!"
What hardship is there
in returning to the place from which you came? That man will live ill
who will not know how to die well. Therefore we must take from the value
we set upon this thing, and the breath of life must be counted as a
cheap matter. As Cicero says we feel hostility to gladiators if they
are eager to save their life no matter how; if they display contempt for it, we favor them. The same thing, you may
know, applies to us; for often the cause of death is the fear of dying.
Mistress Fortune, who uses us for her sport, says: "Why should
I save you, you base and cowardly creature? You will be hacked and
pierced with all the more wounds, because you do not know how to offer
your throat. But you, who receive the steel courageously and do not
withdraw your neck or put out your hands to stop it, shall both live
longer and die more easily."
He who fears death will never do anything
worthy of a man who is alive, but be who knows that these were the terms
drawn up for him at the moment of his conception will live according to
the bond, and at the same time will also with like strength of mind
guarantee that none of the things that happen shall be unexpected. For
by looking forward to whatever can happen as though it would happen,
he will soften the attacks of all ills, which bring nothing
strange to those who have been prepared beforehand and are expecting
them; it is the unconcerned and those that expect nothing but good
fortune upon whom they fall heavily. Sickness comes, captivity,
disaster, conflagration, but none of them is unexpected — I always knew
in what disorderly company Nature had confined me.
Many times has
wailing for the dead been heard in my neighborhood; many times have the
torch and the taper led untimely funerals past my threshold; often has
the crash of a falling building resounded at my side; many of those whom
the forum, the senate-house and conversation had bound to me a night has
carried off, and the hands that were joined in friendship have been
sundered by the grave. Should I be surprised if the dangers that always have wandered about me should at some time
reach me? The number of men that will plan a voyage without thinking of
storms is very great. I shall never be ashamed to quote a bad author if
what he says is good. Publilius, who, whenever he abandoned the
absurdities of farce and language directed to the gallery, had more
vigor than the writers of comedy and tragedy, among many other
utterances more striking than any that came from the buskined — to say
nothing of the comic curtain's — stage, has also this:
Whatever can one man befall can happen just as well to
all.
If a man lets this sink deep into his heart, and, when he looks
upon the evils of others, of which there is a huge supply every day,
remembers that they are free to come to him also, he will arm himself
against them long before they attack him. It is too late to equip the
soul to endure dangers after the dangers have arisen. You say: "I did
not think this would happen," and "Would you have believed that this
would happen?" But why not? Where are the riches that do not have
poverty and hunger and beggary following close behind? What rank is
there whose bordered robe and augur's wand and patrician boot-laces
do not carry in their train rags and branded disgrace — a thousand
stigmas and utter disrepute?
What kingdom is there for which ruin and a
trampling underfoot and the tyrant and the hangman are not in store? Nor
are such things cut off by long intervals, but between the throne and
bending at another's knees there is but an hour's space. Know, then,
that every lot in life is changeable, and that whatever befalls, any man
can befall you also. You are rich: but are you any richer than Pompey? Yet he lacked even bread and water when
Gaius, an old kinsman but a new sort of host, had opened to him the
house of Caesar in order that he might have a chance to close his own!
Though he owned so many rivers that had their source within his own
lands and their mouth within his own lands, he had to beg for drops of
water. In the palace of his kinsman he perished from hunger and thirst,
and, while he was starving, his heir was arranging to give him a state
funeral!
You have held the highest offices; but have you held any as
great, as unlooked for, as comprehensive as those of Sejanus? Yet on the
day on which the senate played the escort the people tore him to
pieces! Of the man who had had heaped upon him all that gods and men
were able to bestow nothing was left for the executioner to drag to the
river! You are a king: it will not be Croesus to whom I shall direct
you, who lived to see his own pyre both lighted and extinguished, who
was forced to survive, not his kingdom only, but even his own death,
nor Jugurtha, whom the Roman people gazed upon as a captive in less than a
year after he had made them afraid. We ourselves have seen Ptolemy, king
of Africa, and Mithridates, king of Armenia, under the charge of Gaius's
guards; the one was sent into exile, the other was anxious to be sent
there in better faith!
In view of this great mutability of fortune,
that moves now upward, now downward, unless you consider that whatever
can happen is likely to happen to you, you surrender yourself into the
power of adversity, which any man can crush if he sees her first.
Our next concern will be not to labor either for useless ends or
uselessly, that is, not to desire either what we are not able to
accomplish, or what, if attained, will cause us to understand too late
and after much shame the emptiness of our desires. In other words,
neither should our labor be in vain and without result, nor the result
unworthy of our labor; for as a rule sadness attends upon it, if there
has been either lack of success or shame for success. We must curtail
the restlessness that a great many men show in wandering through houses
and theatres and forums; they thrust themselves into the affairs of
others, and always appear to be busily engaged. If you ask one of these
as he comes out of the house: "Where are you going? What have you in
mind?" he will reply to you: "Upon my word, I really do not know; but I
shall see some people, I shall do something."
They wander without any
plan looking for employment, and they do, not what they have determined
to do, but whatever they have stumbled upon. Their course is is aimless
and idle as that of ants crawling among bushes, which idly bustle to the
top of a twig and then to the bottom; many men are like these in their
way of life, which one may not unjustly call "busy idleness." When you
see some of them running as if they were going to a fire, you will be
sorry for them; so often do they collide with those they meet and send
themselves and others sprawling, though all the while they have been
rushing to pay a call to someone who will not return it, or to attend the funeral of a man they do not know, or the trial of someone who
is always having a suit, or the betrothal of some woman who is always
getting married, and, having attached themselves to some litter, have in
some places even carried it. Afterwards, when they are returning home
wearied to no purpose, they swear that they themselves do not know why
they left home, or where they have been, and, on the next day they will
wander over the selfsame track. And so let all your effort be directed
toward some object, let it keep some object in view!
It is not activity
that makes men restless, but false conceptions of things render them
mad. For even madmen do not become agitated without some hope; they are
excited by the mere appearance of some object, the falsity of which is
not apparent to their afflicted mind. In the same way every one of
those who go forth to swell the throng is led around the city by
worthless and trivial reasons; dawn drives a man forth though he has no
task to do, and, after he has been crushed in many men's door-ways, all
in vain, and has saluted their nomenclators one after another, and has
been shut out by many, he finds that, of them all, not one is more
difficult to catch at home than himself. From this evil is derived that
most disgusting vice of eavesdropping and prying into public and secret
matters and learning of many things that it is neither safe to tell nor
safe to listen to.
I fancy that Democritus was thinking of this when he began: "If a man
shall wish to live tranquilly, let him not engage in many affairs either
public or private," referring of course to useless affairs. For if
necessity demands, we must engage in many, even countless, affairs both
public and private; but when there is no call from sacred duty, we must restrain other
activities. For if a man engages in many affairs, he often puts himself
in the power of Fortune, while his safest course is rarely to tempt her,
always to be mindful of her, and never to put any trust in her promises.
Say, "I will set sail unless something happens," and "I shall become
praetor unless something hinders me," and "My enterprise will be
successful unless something interferes."
This is why we say that nothing
happens to a wise man contrary to his expectations — we release him, not
from the accidents, but from the blunders of mankind, nor do all things
turn out as he has wished, but as he has thought; but his first thought
has been that something might obstruct his plans. Then, too, the
suffering that comes to the mind from the abandonment of desire must
necessarily be much lighter if you have not certainly promised it
success. We ought also to make ourselves adaptable lest we become too
fond of the plans we have formed, and we should pass readily to the
condition to which chance has led us, and not dread shifting either
purpose or positions — provided that fickleness, a vice most hostile to
repose, does not get hold of us. For obstinacy, from which Fortune often
wrests some concession, must needs be anxious and unhappy, and much more
grievous must be a fickleness that nowhere shows self-restraint.
Both
are foes to tranquillity — both the inability to change and the
inability to endure. Most of all, the mind must be withdrawn from
external interests into itself. Let it have confidence in itself,
rejoice in itself, let it admire its own things, let it retire as far as
possible from the things of others and devote itself to itself, let it
not feel losses, let it interpret kindly even adversities.
Zeno, our master, when he
received news of a shipwreck and heard that all his property had been
sunk, said: "Fortune bids me to follow philosophy with fewer
encumbrances." A tyrant was threatening the philosopher Theodorus with
death and even with lack of burial: "You have the right," he replied,
"to please yourself, you have within your power only a half pint of my
blood; for as to burial, you are a fool if you think it makes any
difference to me whether I rot above ground or beneath it." Julius Canus,
a rarely great man, whom even the fact that he was born in our own age
does not prevent our admiring, had had a long dispute with Gaius, and
when, as he was leaving, Phalaris said to him: "That you may not by any
chance comfort yourself with a foolish hope, I have ordered you to be
executed," he replied: "Most excellent prince, I tender you my thanks."
I am not sure what he meant, for many explanations occur to me. Did he
wish to be insulting and show him how great his cruelty must be if it
made death a kindness? Or was he taunting him with the everyday proofs
of insanity? — for those whose children had been murdered and whose
property had been confiscated used to thank him — or was it that he
accepted death as a happy escape? However it may be, it was a high-souled
reply. But someone will say: "There was a possibility that after this
Gaius might order him to live." Canus had no fear of that; it was well
known that in orders of this sort Gaius was a man of his word! Will you
believe that Canus spent the ten intervening days before his execution
in no anxiety of any sort? What the man said, what he did, how tranquil
he was, passes all credence.
He was playing chess when the centurion who was dragging off a
whole company of victims to death ordered that he also be summoned.
Having been called, he counted the pawns and said to his partner: "See
that after my death you do not claim falsely that you won"; then nodding
to the centurion, he said: "You will bear witness that I am one pawn
ahead." Do you think that at that board Canus was playing a game? Nay,
he was making game! His friends were sad at the thought of losing such a
man; but "Why," said he, "are you sorrowful? You are wondering whether
our souls are immortal; but I shall soon know." Nor up to the very end
did he cease to search for truth and to make his own death a subject for
debate.
His own teacher of philosophy was accompanying him, and, when
they were not far from the low hill on which the daily sacrifice to
Caesar, our god, was made, said: "What are you thinking of now, Canus,
or what state of mind are you in?" And Canus said: "I have determined to
watch whether the spirit will be conscious that it is leaving the body
when that fleetest of moments comes," and he promised that, if he
discovered anything, he would make the round of his friends, and reveal
to them what the state of the soul really is. Here is tranquillity in the
very midst of the storm, here is a mind worthy of
immortality — a spirit that summons its own fate to the proof of truth,
that, in the very act of taking that one last step, questions the
departing soul, and learns, not merely up to the point of death, but
seeks to learn something even from death itself. No one has ever played
the philosopher longer. Not hastily shall so great a man be abandoned,
and he must be spoken of with respect. O most glorious soul, chief victim of the murders of
Gaius, to the memory of all time will I consign thee!
But it does no good to have got rid of the causes of individual
sorrow; for one is sometimes seized by hatred of the whole human race.
When you reflect how rare is simplicity, how unknown is innocence, and
how good faith scarcely exists, except when it is profitable,
and when you think of all the throng of successful crimes and of the
gains and losses of lust, both equally hateful, and of ambition that, so
far from restraining itself within its own bounds, now gets glory from
baseness — when we remember these things, the mind is plunged into
night, and as though the virtues, which it is now neither possible to
expect nor profitable to possess, had been overthrown, there comes
overwhelming gloom.
We ought, therefore, to bring ourselves to believe
that all the vices of the crowd are, not hateful, but ridiculous, and to
imitate Democritus rather than Heraclitus. For the latter, whenever he
went forth into public, used to weep, the former to laugh; to the one
all human doings seemed to be miseries, to the other follies. And so we
ought to adopt a lighter view of things, and put up with them in an
indulgent spirit; it is more human to laugh at life than to lament
over it. Add, too, that he deserves better of the human race
also who laughs at it than he who bemoans it; for the one allows it some
measure of good hope, while the other foolishly weeps over things that
he despairs of seeing corrected.
And, considering everything, he shows a greater mind who does not
restrain his laughter than he who does not restrain his tears, since the
laugher gives expression to the mildest of the emotions, and deems
that there is nothing important, nothing serious, nor
wretched either, in the whole outfit of life. Let a man set before
himself the causes, one by one, that give rise to joy and sadness, and
he will learn that what Bion said is true, that all the doings of men
are just like their beginnings, and that their life is no more
respectable or serious than their conception, that born from nothingness
they go back to nothingness.
Yet it is better to accept calmly the ways
of the public and the vices of man, and be thrown neither into laughter
nor into tears; for it is unending misery to be worried by the
misfortunes of others, and unhuman pleasure to take delight in the
misfortunes of ethers, just as it is a useless show of humanity to weep
and pull a long face because someone is burying a son. In the matter of
one's own misfortunes, too, the right way to act is to bestow on them
the measure of sorrow that Nature, not custom, demands; for many shed
tears in order to make a show of them, and, whenever a spectator is
lacking, their eyes are dry, though they judge it disgraceful not to
weep when everyone is doing it. This evil of depending on the opinion of
others has become so deeply implanted that even grief, the most natural
thing in the world, becomes now a matter of pretence.
I come now to a class of cases which is wont with good cause to sadden
and bring us concern. When good men come to bad ends, when Socrates is
forced to die in prison, Rutilius to live in exile, Pompey and Cicero to
offer their necks to their own clients, and great Cato, the living image
of all the virtues, by falling upon his sword to show that the end had
come for himself and for the state at the same time, we needs must be
distressed that Fortune pays her rewards so unjustly. And what hope can anyone then have for himself
when he sees that the best men suffer the worst fate?
What then is the
answer? See the manner in which each one of them bore his fate, and if
they were brave, desire with your heart hearts like theirs, if they
perished like a woman and a coward, then nothing perished; either they
deserve that you should admire their virtue, or they do not deserve that
you should desire their cowardice. For if the greatest men by dying
bravely make others cowards, what could be more shameful? Let us praise
those deserving of praise over and over and say: "The braver a man is,
the happier he is! You may escaped from all accident, jealousy, and
sickness; you have gone forth from prison; it was not that you seemed to
the gods to be worthy of evil fortune, but unworthy of being subject any
longer to the power of Fortune." But those who draw back and on the very
threshold of death look back toward life — there is need to lay hands on
these!
I shall weep for no one who is happy, for no one who weeps; the
one with his own hand has wiped away my tears, the other by his tears
has made himself unworthy of having any of mine. Should I weep for
Hercules because he was burned alive? or for Regulus because he was
pierced by so many nails? or for Cato because he wounded his own
wounds? All these by a slight sacrifice of time found out how they
might become eternal, and by dying reached immortality.
And this, too, affords no small occasion for anxieties — if you are bent
on assuming a pose and never reveal yourself to anyone frankly, in the
fashion of many who live a false life that is all made up for show; for
it is torturous to be constantly watching oneself and be fearful of
being caught out of our usual role. And we are never free from concern
if we think that every time anyone looks at us he is always taking-our
measure; for many things happen that strip off our pretence against our
will, and, though all this attention to self is successful, yet the life
of those who live under a mask cannot be happy and without anxiety. But
how much pleasure there is in simplicity that is pure, in itself
unadorned, and veils no part of its character! Yet even such a life as this does run some risk
of scorn, if everything lies open to everybody; for there are those who
disdain whatever has become too familiar. But neither does virtue run
any risk of being despised when she is brought close to the eyes, and it
is better to be scorned by reason of simplicity than tortured by
perpetual pretence. Yet we should employ moderation in the matter; there
is much difference between living naturally and living carelessly.
Moreover, we ought to retire into ourselves very often; for intercourse
with those of dissimilar natures disturbs our settled calm, and rouses
the passions anew, and aggravates any weakness in the mind that has not
been thoroughly healed. Nevertheless the two things must be combined and
resorted to alternately — solitude and the crowd. The one will make us
long for men, the other for ourselves, and the one will relieve the
other; solitude will cure our aversion to the throng, the throng our
weariness of solitude. And the mind must not be kept invariably at the
same tension, but must be diverted to amusements.
Socrates did not blush
to play with little children, and Cato, when he was wearied by the cares
of state, would relax his mind with wine, and Scipio would disport his triumphal and soldierly person
to the sound of music, moving not with the voluptuous contortions
that are now the fashion, when men even in walking squirm with more
than a woman's voluptuousness, but in the manly style in which men
in the days of old were wont to dance during the times of sport and
festival, risking no loss of dignity even if their own enemies
looked on. The mind must be given relaxation; it will arise
better and keener after resting. As rich fields must not be
forced — for their productiveness, if they have no rest, will
quickly exhaust them — so constant labor will break the vigor of
the mind, but if it is released and relaxed a little while, it will
recover its powers; continuous mental toil breeds in the mind a
certain dullness and languor.
Nor would the desire of men tend so much in this direction unless sport and
amusement brought a sort of pleasure that was natural, but the
frequent use of these will steal all weight and all force from the
mind; for sleep also is necessary for refreshment, nevertheless if
you prolong it throughout the day and night, it will be death.
There is a great difference between slackening and removing your
bond! The founders of our laws appointed days of festival in
order that men might be forced by the state into merry-making, thinking that it was
necessary to modify their toil by some interruption of their tasks;
and among great men, as I have remarked, some used to set aside
fixed days every month for a holiday, some divided every day into
play-time and work-time.
Asinius Pollio, the great orator, I
remember, had such a rule, and never worked at anything beyond the
tenth hour; he would not even read letters after that hour for
fear something new might arise that needed attention, but in those two
hours laid aside the weariness of the whole long day. Some
break off in the middle of the day, and reserve some task that
requires lighter effort for the afternoon hours. Our
ancestors, too forbade any new motion to be made in the senate after
the tenth hour. The soldier divides his watches, and those who have
just returned from an expedition have the whole night free.
We must be indulgent to the mind, and from time to time must grant it
the leisure that serves as its food and strength. And, too, we
ought to take walks out-of-doors in order that the mind may be
strengthened and refreshed by the open air and much breathing;
sometimes it will get new vigor from a journey by carriage and a
change of place and festive company and generous drinking. At
times we ought to reach the point even of intoxication, not drowning
ourselves in drink, yet succumbing to it; for it washes away
troubles, and stirs the mind from its very depths and heals its
sorrow just as it does certain ills of the body; and the inventor of
wine is not called the Releaser on account of the license it gives
to the tongue, but because it frees the mind from bondage to cares
and emancipates it and gives it new life, and makes it bolder in all
that it attempts. But, as in freedom, so in wine there is a
wholesome moderation.
It is believed that Solon and Arcesilaus
were fond of wine, and Cato has been reproached for drunkenness; but
whoever reproaches that man will more easily make reproach
honorable than Cato base. Yet we ought not to do this often,
for fear that the mind may contract an evil habit, nevertheless
there are times when it must be drawn into rejoicing and freedom,
and gloomy sobriety must be banished for a
while. For whether we believe with the Greek poet that
"sometimes it is a pleasure also to rave," or with Plato that "the
sane mind knocks in vain at the door of poetry," or with Aristotle
that "no great genius has ever existed without some touch of
madness" — be that as it may, the lofty utterance that rises above
the attempts of others is impossible unless the mind is
excited.
When it has scorned the vulgar and the
commonplace, and has soared far aloft fired by divine inspiration,
then alone it chants a strain too lofty for mortal lips. So
long as it is left to itself, it is impossible for it to reach any
sublime and difficult height; it must forsake the common track and
be driven to frenzy and champ the bit and run away with its rider
and rush to a height that it would have feared to climb by
itself. Here are the rules, my dearest Serenus, by which you
may preserve tranquillity, by which you may restore it, by which you
may resist the vices that steal upon it unawares. Yet be sure
of this — none of them is strong enough to guard a thing so frail
unless we surround the wavering mind with earnest and unceasing
care.